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ooooooNight was coming quickly, casting a shadow on everything in it's path. A soft breeze rolled by, as if to to warn me that i was alone. The wind began to pick up more and more, causing small tree branches to crackle and bigger ones to screech against the windows.
afraid a branch might break and shatter my kitchen window, i took the gardening sheers and marched outside to cut any dead branches off. The storm on the horizon was evident; if the moisture in the air that clung to my neck and arms weren't enough, the heat and pressure were the only other things that could assure me.
As the first few droplets sprinkled my hair and the tip of my nose, i saw a shape out of the corner of my eye and held back a gasp. The light from the front porch bent around the man, stretching and oblonging his shadow.
prettywhat is left when all you hang onto is a pretty face?
when the world revolves around beauty but the rest of us can't keep up the pace?
It's all lies, skin and bones,
whats left of beauty is forgotten like an ancient picture, carved in stone.
you ARE beautiful, it may not be in the way that the world wants you to be,
but its what you've got so cling to it tightly and never set if free.
Your soul is the most precious thing that this new world doesn't hold dear,
when all girls are driven to starvation, is that when they will reappear?
When will we, ourselves, be enough for the world? When our pores are non existant and our hair is perfectly flat? What if they told you curly hair and big pores were in syle? what would you do about that?
fallingsinking sliding, unable to escape.
theres no way to separate my inevitable fate.
nothing under me, to keep me steady,
no one by my side, waiting and ready.
Tumbling, falling, hurling with speed,
cant take any more of this wanting...this need.
fighting struggling, to keep away from the end
only to find that i'm stuck again.
numbing, death, anything but this
the feeling i get with each and every kiss.
insert title here 2the teacher passed the books out to us, gave us a sheet with four questions on it, then left the classroom saying something about the teachers lounge.
"HI! I'm Sam" the beautiful, colorful girl said, her face animated and happy.
she held her rainbow-gloved hand out for me to shake.
"J-Jason..." i managed to stutter taking her hand.
"Where'd ya move from, Jason?"
my name on her lips made my heart explode again, this time melting it and sending a warm tingle through my body.
"michigan..." i mumbled.
"ooh it must be freezing there! Well Jason say hello to the Texas heat haha you get used to it." She laughed nervously, biting her lip a little on the left side.
"you moved in right next to me, maybe we can hang out some time i'm sure after a few days you'll fit right in here." she assured me.
somehow even when she said it i didn't beleive her.
we got talking about stuff she was interested in, the more she talked, the more i felt like i was going to go insane and kiss
insert title herenew state, new school, new everything...of course my parents picked freshman year to move me across the country from the only place i'd ever known. why me? why now? why HERE? we stepped off the plane into the small airport. i could already feel the heat. from big town michigan to small town texas, i am NOT going to fit in here. an outcast through high school. i'm screwed. effed. pwned. anything but okay. my mom rubbed my arm
"it'll be okay, jason. You will make plenty of friends and we'll still keep in touch with your old ones." she assured me. i knew it was lies. everything would sure as hell not be okay. we walked to the parking lot, our stuff was already at the new house i'd never been to. we drove for 20 minutes, i watched the hills and pastures fly by the window as i settled into a deep sense of self-pity.
i didn't hate my mom, i knew this move was for the best. i just wish it didn't have to be now. we got out of the car, and started for the big, red front door. when it o
scream ch. 4"WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHERRRRRRR!" sang Anna, as loud as she possibly could. she thought watcing musicals would make me feel better, which would have worked, had it not been high school musical.
I heard Jared snickering as he strolled by behind the couch. From that moment on i knew he was to be my enimy in front of Anna, but a friend when she wasn't looking. That night when as i tried to fall asleep, Anna snoring in the bed next to me, all i could think about was him. I tried to push his image out of my head. His perfect dimples, the way his hair moved.
what the hell is wrong with me?!?!?! Snap out of it girl! How can you be thinking about boys when your family was just taken from you!?!!?!?!?
finally i just got up and walked towards the kitchen for a glass of water, fumbling in the dark. I felt my body collide with another and hit the floor, although, there was no noise made.
someone was on top of me, and they whispered "Miya? is that you?"
"yeah, can you ge
scream ch3I picked up the last box, then looked around the room. It was once so formiliar, now it seemed as if it was haunted by the life that used to be so happy there.
My heart raced as i my mind took me back to when i was about 4 years old. I danced and sang with my brother, we spun in circles until we were too dizzy to walk. I watched my small self spin, a warm light over the room, then looked at my brother and tears threatened to spill. I snapped myself back into reality, then I switched off the light as I walked out of the room, closed the door, and continued out of the house. a single tear fell from my eye as i took one last look at my childhood home.
"come on, lets get out of here" said Anna, she rubbed my arm gently and led me to the car. All i had were my possesions and a few things of my family's that i kept. for instance, my mothers wedding dress, the family photo album, my brothers football helmet, and my fathers bible, these things were of the greatest importa
scream ch.2"Miya! What's wrong??? what happened?" Anna tried to ask, shaking me as a whaled and sobbed in agony. I screamed and threw pillows and popcorn at the television set, which caused Anna to look. She too fell to her knees in shock.
she held me as i cried. The phone rang about 20 seconds later.
Anna answered with a "hello?" and then she said "yes, she is aware, we just saw the news" there was a long pause. "no...not there. can she stay with a friend?"
she said "yes we can get the papers" then hung up.
I didn't care what happened to me. I wanted my family.
screamit was supposed to be a normal friday, but that day was the day my life changed. I rode the bus home, as usual, and got home around 3. my best friend anna came over and we were getting ready for a party when i heard the news on the TV. i collapsed onto the floor in tears. they showed pictures on the screen of the three people killed in the accident. my family.
PetalsI pull off a petal
"He loves me."
His smile is the galaxy I live and breathe in.
I pull off a petal.
And when he can't make time for me, that's okay.
He makes up for it in his kisses.
I pull off a petal.
The other girls don't matter
Because he comes home to me.
It hurts a little but I deal with it
Because he is the sun and the stars.
I pull off a petal.
He may ignore me sometimes
But deep down I know he cares.
I pull off a petal.
I'm hurting, but I need him.
He's the only one in my head.
He's the air in my lungs.
I pull off a petal.
"He loves me not."
speechlessI swear, I don't think I've ever
met a person quite like you before.
You stir up an inconceivable amount of feelings
inside of me, and it seems that I can never
find the right words to say whenever I'm around you.
historically inaccurate documents-i-
you were perfect.
i could not look directly
at your flare, your lace,
i learned to love and blush
in that moment.
there are eight planets
and each one orbits
i am the first person to name
this cluster of stars
for the handful of freckles
on your arm
that it mirrors.
and i am also
you are the gleaming envy
of every viewer. you stand
bathed in worship-worthy
nervous ticks that only i
not a single other being
in our plane
is made of matter.
you alone are real
and we are the shatters
of the echoes
your breathing makes.
cusped quasars sync
portals swarming out of
sinusoidal orders. ornate
soils storing digitized loyalties
of lovers purring potently.
potential switched kinetic
all times are ours
and all dimensions follow
all rhymes involve
and all tensions swallow
we're all right
in all beds
with all words
like the length
of our lives,
we are withou
A MemoryI remember eating marshmallows
roasted by candle
Dancing in the light
of your cell phone with our voices
making a tune at midnight
Days spent jumping, laughing,
Our feelings seemed connect
As did our hands intertwined
when we'd crossed a mess.
When we'd made our palms bleed
From swinging off trees,
Or when we dug a hole
To hide from the world
We spent snowy days in our shorts and bare feet
Just to see who could stand the heat of the burning freeze
And when I got too cold
you'd pick me up and run us home,
Rainy days were spent laying in puddles listening to the drops, getting soaked
And the sunniest were spent in swimsuits spraying each other with a hose
But every story has an end
So I lost my best friend...
What felt like death
When you left
Because every leaf kicked up in the fall...fell
and every raindrop to be caught...missed
every snowflake to be felt... melt
every flame to jump over in the summer sky...burned out
All these memories fall on my head;
Talking on your
One nightOne night, I can be with you.
I don't have to look at the moon
anymore; hoping that you will be
looking too. The stars dance
around the moon like all those
other girls do, because they want
to be with you.
Envy begins to the poison that
sets into my veins; how any of
those girls could make you feel
like you've found the one but I'm
just going to be that girl that
sits on the side wishing that
you could love me.
You won't even know anything about
me but, I know so much about you,
my dear. The way that you smile the
definition of happiness, to the way
your voice plays a symphony that is
I begin to fall in love with you
all over again, like I did before.
Nothing could make me feel so safe
and warm in a cocoon except for you;
looking at me with those blue eyes
that are brighter then the ocean
itself making it jealous of you.
Our UniverseHere we are in our mundane universe.
We stand underneath the night sky
And gaze up at the stars.
We are two small specks of dust
Attached to each other by tangled fingers.
My toes wiggle deeper into the sand
As I watch you splash around in the warm water.
Sometimes it's hard to believe there's a universe out there.
But we'll see it someday.
Together, hand in hand,
We will explore this huge galaxy.
We will make our own discoveries.
We will search for adventure
All the while we hold tightly to each other.
Because I see the universe in your eyes and your heart.
Because no matter how far we go
We'll still be two little dots
Lying on that beach
For you If the stars don't shine tonight
Will you still love me?
If our hearts stopped beating
Would you forgive me?
If the earth stopped spinning
Would you still hate me
Yes I know darling you still hate me, your hate for me burns like a raging inferno.
I understand no matter what I will always love you.
The truth is you could take everything I love, strip me down from everything, break me, even slit my throat and I would still love you.
You raised me from the hell I was drowning in, the black abyss I was trapped in for so long.
To this day I don't know why you would do that just to leave me!
I did everything you asked.
I stood up for you.
I fought for you
I would have even taken a bullet for you...
but still your pierced that knife through my back grinning the entire way
I would have done anything for you
Even if you died I would have died with you
Even if that meant taking my own life and losing my wings
Your StarlightYour Starlight:
Climbing up the steep slope
Completely enveloped in summer
Night's warm embrace
My goal silhouetted against the moon
The Withered old tree stood
Covered in the scars of forgotten promises
Placing a hand on the old bark
I remove a pocketknife into my hand
Staring at the blank spot
I recall memories from my life,
My first steps, my first Dance
My first Love, My first broken heart.
The tears come before I can stop them
Even now the scars still hurt
Clenching my fist I closes my eyes
Trying to contain the pain
Suddenly I feel a pair of arms
Wrap around my shoulders
Opening an eye I saw
Arms made of starlight
Turning 'round I saw him
My star, the only one who cared
I hadn't spoken to him since I was young
But that didn't matter to him
He smiled and hugged me again,
"Do not worry." He whispered into my ear
"Though you've grown, I'll still be here."
He held onto my shoulder and smiled at me
I said with more tears than ever
"How can you still care? I almost forgot you were ther
Ti AmoTi Amo, those are words that I
mutter under my breath. It's crazy
how much I love you; I thought about
you with each tick the clock's hand
With each stride I took everything
inn my life began to fall into
place,except for you; a stubborn piece
that you were not wanting to fit.
I didn't want to let you go because
you were the one person that I wanted
in my life.
Months go passing by right before my
eyes, I realize that I didn't want
you in my life anymore; the stress
for me to be this perfect person was
something I didn't want to deal with.
Ti Amo, how those two engrossing words
could mean I love you in a language
with such an elegance that could rip your
heart from the disappearance of that
sweetness not being said to you ever again
from that one person that meant everything.
loving armswith arms open wide,
you are always by my side.
from beginning to the end,
you can always be my friend.
love may be a word to 'strong'
as others may say.
but in the end,
who of them, has stayed?
the feelings i feel for you,
are too much to ignore,
you, my dearest love, my only treasure,
are the one, the only one, who i shall ever adore.
AndromedaAmongst the darkened skies
Brightened by only starlight
Field & Sea.
Gravity is only an afterthought
Hilltops become ladders into the sky while
Inferior planets stare down upon the Earth
Jealous of such simplicity yet contemplating grandeur.
Keppler only thought of science
Linear, elliptical, movement…
Mythology had no such thoughts
Neptune & Nebulas both inhabit space
Orbiting across the lonely darkness
Probably never worried about mundane things
Questioning their existence
Right now or for all eternity such as us.
Shooting stars make us joyful while
Terminator is an otherworldly spectacle
Unknown to all those hidden in their houses
Various stars await us outside
Waiting to play like we did before
Xenagogue & inviting
Youthful but ancient curiosities.
Zenith induced euphoria continues until daylight…
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